AzLeEna ZeN

skytrex adventure.awesome!

2012-02-06T09:16:00.000-08:00

ok kali ni xnak citer psl jodoh.darlene dah pesan jgn risau psl jodoh.yeah u are right!muda lagi kan.kan?kan?

ok this entry i really excited to tell u about our journey to accomplished skytrex adventure.So on a blessed Saturday morning, we made our way to Taman Pertanian Malaysia located at Shah Alam. We signed up for Big Thrill Adventure which involving "26 thrilling challenges with various level of difficulty raging from
“easy“ to “very difficult“. With some of the platforms reaching the height of 17 meters, feel the adrenaline while crossing the “Crazy Zig-Zag“ and flying on the “Sky-crawl“ at the Bermuda Triangle. Hold your breath while crossing “The Earthquake“, test your ability to leap at the “Happy Hopper“ and end the adventure with the grand finale, the 100 meters “Wild Revenge“ which will take you to the finishing platform at an exhilarating speed"

we have to ride an open air shuttle bus to Skytrex venue. Once arrived, we have to fill up a registration form in case of anything happens, they can contact a person that we mentioned in a form. and if anything happens to me, do remember how good I was as a daughter--->wasiat kepada ayah and emak.hehe.
then, initiation circuit and briefing, the dos and don’ts by one of the instructors. after that, the journey has began.haha.but i feel sorry cos i didn't captured any pics while we are struggled up there. so i can share u photos that i took from other website.

It was my first ever experienced doing flying fox, climb up 17 metres tree and whatsoever. and all that i can say is..it was a fantastic experienced! u have to try it. believe me.

mission accomplished!! it took about 2 hours to finish the circuit. dan sesungguhnya kami PUAS!!yeay....

i am going to freeze

2012-02-03T00:59:00.000-08:00

i am back.

hahahahahaha.x kelakar pon.

xtau nak update apa.my mind is going to freeze coz duduk bawah aircond yang cam haram sejuk nye.malas nak amek remote untuk tukar suhu ke paras air mendidih.biar jelah aku beku di sini.hahahaha.lagi x kelakar.
ape ye nak update?korang ade idea x?apa kata korg je yang update blog aku?hahahaha mungkin kelakar.

ek eh tak sangka dah masuk bulan 2 tahun 2012 sekarang ni. 2012?year of nightmare for me. my age is crawling step by step to reach 26. oh man.am i still young?please say yes..please..please..huhu. soalan bila nak kahwin xpyh tanya la berapa kali aku disoal?bila org soal tuh..aku rasa cam tumbukan mike tyson kena pada muka aku.hoi berdesing oi..berbaldi-baldi dah soalan tuh aku terima.kalo timbang mau sampai 8.5 kilo.

2012.many of my frens are getting married. lots of invitations. then i just prayed for their happiness. hopefully will last forever. and i hope for myself too. thats my goal for this year.kalau x jumpa jodoh jugak, xpelah..yakin je kdg2 Allah xkan bg apa yg kita nak.tp dia akan bg apa yg terbaik utk kita. so i'm okay with it.somehow.

so lets cheer up.xbest la sedey2 ni kan.jom mulakan gerakan mencari jodoh.euwwww~

ek eh just nak buat advance update.sok aku nak g skytrex kt taman pertanian shah alam.so i will story morry to u olsss the experience dat i will get.

cheers!!

tentang dhia

2011-12-26T18:39:00.000-08:00

it's been a long time i haven't update my blog.I'm not sure either I've been so busy or my fingers are too lazy to push every single alphabet on a keyboard.i think..80% more on lazy!ngehngeh..
sekarang ni selalu layan ceghita tentang dhia kat youtube.nak tgk kat tv3 xdapek doo..maghrib kot.aku sgt obses dgn ceghita tuh skrg.antara sebab-sebabnya adalah:
1. hero aku yang sgt hensem tuh berlakon.biarlah org nak kata bibir dia tebal ke,bibir dia hitam ke..namun dia tetap hensem di mata aku.
2. aku ni bkn lah peminat nora danish,tp bila dia berlakon ceghita tuh,aku suka.nmpk dia baik je.cam aku la tuh kan.hehe.aku suka watak dhia.
3. ceghita tuh sgt romantik.zikir seorang suami yg mithali yang menyayangi dhia sepenuh hati dia.perghhh menusuk ke jiwa lakonan depa tuh.
4. SEBAB AKU NAK CARIK SEORANG SUAMI YANG MACAM ADY PUTRA @ ZIKIR....

sekian..........

(cuba korang bayangkan bahawa dhia adalah azlina.sesuai kan yollllll~)

dosa saya.anda?

2011-11-11T01:28:00.000-08:00

bila manusia melihat manusia lain mengumpat, timbul keinginan untuk tahu isi kandungan perkara yang diumpatkan. setuju?

mengumpat memang sesuatu yang menyeronokkan.saya tahu anda setuju. cerita tentang keburukan manusia lain ditambah pula dengan perasa-perasa tambahan memang menyeronokkan. kita kata manusia itu tak betul, manusia itu menyusahkan, manusia itu keji dan sebagainya.

tapi....

bila mana kita mengumpat tentang manusia lain, pernah tak kita terfikir bahawa diri kita juga tidak sempurna. tiada manusia dilahirkan sempurna. ya saya akui..kadang-kadang kita benci dengan manusia lain, kita akan cari keburukan manusia itu lalu kita sama-sama berjemaah melakukan umpatan terhadap manusia itu.

itu dosa saya. sesungguhnya dosa saya dan dosa anda sangat banyak. setuju?

dosa mengumpat adalah lebih besar daripada dosa zina. MasyaAllah. dosa zina bila mana kita bertaubat, Allah akan ampunkan segala dosa yang dilakukan. tetapi bila bercakap tentang dosa mengumpat, tidak akan diampunkan oleh Allah akan dosanya selagi kita tidak meminta ampun daripada orang yang diumpat. Nauzubillah.

saya bukan orang alim, saya bukan ustazah pilihan =p..tetapi saya cuba untuk mencari keredhaan Allah.

love~

real steel is real

2011-11-03T02:18:00.000-07:00

last night we decided to watch Real Steel in which at the end of the movie, I thought I would like to give standing ovation to that movie.but it was not happened at all because I'm a very shy person as u olll know.ahaks.IF U GET ONE SHOT, MAKE IT REAL!

thumbs up!

when we talked about racist

2011-10-20T02:31:00.000-07:00

I explored the writings of Dr M in his blog, and I found something interesting to share with u guys.u read n u judge.
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Perkauman Sebagai Modal
Adalah
agak menghairankan apabila orang seperti Param Cumaraswamy menuduh orang lain bersifat perkauman kata-kata mereka mendedahkan sifat perkauman mereka sendiri. Bagi mereka, seseorang itu “racist” (bersifat perkauman) cuma apabila bercakap mengenai bangsa Melayu dan keperluan mereka untuk berusaha mengejar pencapaian bangsa lain.
Tetapi,
jika mereka bercakap mengenai masalah kaum lain yang tidak berasas dan tidak benar seperti membuat kenyataan karut bahawa kaum India Tamil di Malaysia menghadapi “penghapusan etnik” yang masyarakat tahu ianya tidak terjadi, ini tidak dianggap bersifat perkauman. Cuma di Malaysia sahaja orang daripada kaum pendatang, atas kehendak mereka sendiri dikenali dan dikaitkan dengan negara asal mereka, telah diterima sebagai warga negara.
Di negara-negara lain,
termasuklah di negara Barat yang demokrasi mereka begitu dikagumi, warga negaranya tidak dikaitkan mahupun diklasifikasikan mengikut negara asal mereka. Mereka juga selalu menggunakan bahasa kebangsaan, negara berkenaan, bersekolah dimana bahasa kebangsaan menjadi bahasa pengantar dan menerima adat resam bangsa pribumi ataupun bangsa yang mula-mula menubuhkan negara itu (apabila bangsa pribumi telah dihapuskan secara terancang).
Tetapi di Malaysia walaupun bahasa kebangsaan adalah bahasa pribumi, ramai rakyat Malaysia yang tidak
boleh bertutur bahasa tersebut, malahan secara lazimnya tidak menggunakan bahasa itu di rumah mahupun dengan rakyat Malaysia yang lain. Apabila orang asing bercakap dalam Bahasa Malaysia mereka akan
menjawab dalam Bahasa Inggeris. Orang asing tidak mengerti mengapa mereka kelihatan merendah-rendahkan bahasa kebangsaan mereka sendiri. Di dalam masa yang sama mereka ini menyoal mengapa tiada Bangsa Malaysia.
Sekolah-sekolah yang menggunakan bahasa negara asal mereka bukan sahaja dibenarkan malahan dibiayai oleh Kerajaan. Cuba cari sekolah sebegini di Asia Tenggara ataupun di negara-negara maju yang dianggap liberal dan didakwa tidak berlaku diskriminasi kaum. Sebenarnya terdapat lebih ramai orang keturunan India di United Kingdom daripada di Malaysia. Tetapi tidak ada sebuah sekolah pun yang mengguna bahasa-bahasa India sebagai bahasa pengantar di United Kingdom.
Orang
seperti Param tidak akan nampak semua ini. Sebaliknya dia melihat sebarang usaha untuk meningkatkan keupayaan rakyat pribumi supaya setanding dengan rakyat bukan pribumi sebagai bersifat perkauman.
Dengan bongkak dia seolah-olah mahu melihat rakyat pribumi semuanya mengemis didalam negara mereka sendiri. Saya mengaku saya bercakap mengenai Ketuanan Melayu semasa di Johor. Sebelum itu, cendekiawan-cendekiawan Melayu telah begitu lama bercakap mengenainya. Tidak pernah ada pandangan bahawa mereka itu bersifat perkauman ataupun ada cadangan supaya mereka ditahan dibawah Akta Dalam Negeri (ISA - Internal Security Act). Saya bercakap mengenai isu itu secara kritis kerana saya menganggap mendakwa diri kita sebagai tuan bila kita bukan tuan adalah aneh. Bagaimanakah boleh seorang pemandu Melayu yang memandu kereta kepunyaan orang lain menganggap dirinya “Tuan” dan pemilik kereta itu berkedudukan lebih rendah daripada dirinya? “Tuan” yang sebenarnya adalah pemilik kereta dan orang yang membayar gajinya.
Di dalam ucapan saya, saya menasihatkan orang Melayu supaya menimba ilmu dan kemahiran supaya boleh digunakan untuk mencari kekayaan bagi diri mereka kerana cuma dengan cara demikian sahaja mereka akan dianggap “Tuan” oleh orang suruhan dan pekerja mereka.
Adakah ini hasutan ataupun menghasut? Adakah membicarakan mengenai bangsa Melayu dan kepentingan mereka menjadi satu hasutan?
Sebaliknya,
cuba kita teliti memorandum Hindraf kepada pihak British. Ramai termasuk kaum India tidak membacanya. Untuk mendapatkan sokongan kaum India Tamil, Hindraf mendesak pihak British supaya membayar gantirugi 1 juta pound sterling (lebih kurang RM 7 juta) kepada setiap orang kaum India Tamil yang terdapat di Malaysia. Ini sudah pasti berupaya mempengaruhi bukan sahaja mereka yang berpendapatan rendah tetapi juga golongan pertengahan dari keturunan Tamil India. Sudah pasti golongan pekerja kaum India terpengaruh.
Terdapat juga didalam memorandum Hindraf sedutan-sedutan seperti berikut yang jelas bersifat perkauman:
1)“Kaum India Komanwel yang merupakan rakyat yang mencintai keamanan di Malaysia ditindas oleh Kerajaan yang didokong oleh pengganas bersenjata kelompok ekstremis Islam telah dengan ganasnya melancarkan satu serangan bersenjata sebelum subuh dan memusnahkan Tokong Hindu Mariamman di Kampung Jawa pada pukul 4 pagi ini (15.11.07)”.
2)“Memohon kepada United Kingdom untuk membentangkan satu resolusi tergempar Pertubuhan Bangsa-Bangsa Bersatu mengutuk “Penghapusan Etnik” di Malaysia”.
Saya tidak mahu menambah lagi lain-lain kenyataan yang begitu mengapi-ngapikan perasaan perkauman yang terdapat didalam memorandum Hindraf tersebut. Walau bagaimanapun, saya ingin menyebut mengenai ugutan yang dibuat oleh Hindraf didalam kesimpulannya;
“Kami risau kaum India berketurunan Tamil yang cintakan keamanan setelah dipinggirkan dan ditindas, semakin hari semakin teruk, akan pada satu ketika, secara terpaksa mengambil langkah keganasan sebagaimana yang terjadi kepada kaum Tamil di Sri Lanka.”
Adakah Hindraf bercadang menjadikan Malaysia sebagai Sri Lanka di Asia Tenggara?
Saya tidak percaya majoriti orang Tamil di Malaysia bersetuju dengan gambaran yang dibuat oleh Hindraf. Malangnya, seperti orang Melayu, cuma beberapa orang sahaja yang membaca memorandum yang sebenarnya. Jadi mereka menyokong Hindraf secara membuta-tuli.
Tetapi jika anda membaca apa yang telah saya nyatakan tidakkah anda akan membuat satu kesimpulan bahawa Hindraf dan Param Cumaraswamy, yang membantah penahanan mereka dibawah ISA bersifat perkauman, terutama di atas kehendaknya supaya saya ditahan dibawah Akta itu kerana menyatakan
kepada orang Melayu supaya menyedari yang mereka bukan “Tuan” apabila mereka terpaksa mencuci kasut orang lain. Jika mereka ingin menjadi “Tuan”, mereka mesti menimba ilmu dan kecekapan untuk berjaya didalam kehidupan. Dan apabila mereka berjaya martabat mereka akan meningkat samada mereka dipanggil “Tuan” ataupun tidak.
Nampak jelas menurut Param Cumaswamy , bercakap mengenai orang Melayu adalah satu hasutan yang berbau perkauman.
Jadi siapa yang bersifat perkauman; Param Cumaraswamy atau Dr Mahathir?
Saya tidak akan meminta supaya dia ditahan.
Sebagai
seorang peguam yang memahami undang-undang, dia perlu menilai dirinya
samada dia seorang yang bersifat perkauman dan perlu ditahan atau tidak.
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I love u Dr M.keep on posting.
peace~

sesuatu yang ingin dimiliki tetapi sukar direalisasi

2011-09-30T00:30:00.000-07:00

1. i dunno the date that i bought DSLR.it's about more or less 2 years ago. and of course i choose a cheaper one brand sony.bajet tarak maa.i'm lucky because my superhero dad are willing to be a share partner.thank u dad for making my dream becomes real. but there's one more thing about DSLR that i really aim to have it.lens SAL85F14Z 85mm f/1.4.and the price is RM 1,299.OMG!!tuh belum tgk yang lain2 yang lagi power daripada tuh.for the beginner, lens cmtuh dah kira ok la tuh.xpayah bajet cam professional ye.huhu.ayah, do u still willing to be a share partner again?=p

2. ok the second wish is..i want to learn how to play guitar.i know this statement will annoying uolllss.tp serius..teringin sgt nak main.when i watched vc of najwa latif in youtube, rs teringin nak jd cam dia.time2 boring blh melalak sorang2 sambil memetik gitar.tapi sape nak ajar aku haa?any volunteer?tp kalau nak main gitar, i have to spend some money gak nak beli gitar.ish duit lagi..semuanya nak kena guna duit.kan bagus kalau blh byr guna bulu ketiak.kan?kan?kan?

3. Nike LunarGlide+ 3..hny mampu tengok,belum mampu dimiliki..sadis.

4. actually there's so many things that i dream of. tp cukuplah setakat ni shj entri aku.nanti lagi byk aku list,lagi kuat setan menggoda aku.haha.

raya blues

2011-09-10T20:45:00.000-07:00

late entry about our 1st raya. nothing much to story morry about my raya blues.same like before.1 day before raye we went to kg belah mak.we cooked rendang..dats compulsory every time raye.even raye haji pon kena wat rendang gak.then penginapan 2 hari 1 malam di kampung.
famili kitorg xde tema baju.pakai je ikot suka.and the best thing is..rmai ckp aku dh gemuk kembali.wahh..sebelum ni aku kurus ke?muahaha..takde maknanye.Looking at my raya picture this year, yes I am fatter than last year, which is so depressing. Trying to make some lifestyle changes but it is so difficult. I have been battling weight since forever, and this is like the one obstacle that I cannot defeat anymore.rase nak buat sedut lemak je.muahaha. ok malas nak ckp banyak.tgk je la gmbr raye kitorg kt bawah ni:

hei budak.lu kasi wa rindu sama lu..

ceritera jodoh

2011-09-05T01:42:00.000-07:00

bila cerita tentang jodoh.hati aku jd sayu.nak tau kenape?sbbnye aku belom jumpa lg sang putera yang boleh menawan hati aku.eceh cam la pandai berpujangga aku ni.
bila baca blog member,aku jeles.jeles sbb dia tgh bahagia and sooner or later she will getting married.dan dalam aku baca blog member, ada plak member aku sorg lg mesej offer aku jadi pengapit dia masa wedding reception dia nanti.bertambah sayu la aku.untuk menguatkan semangat dan keimanan aku, aku tergerak utk search artikel yang menceritakan mengenai jodoh.
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"Nyatakanlah perasaan dan keinginan anda dalam doa-doa lewat solat. Allah itu Maha Mendengar.
Wanita baik untuk lelaki yang baik, sebaliknya wanita jahat untuk lelaki yang jahat. Yakinlah pada janji-Nya kerana kita orang yang beriman.
Biar lambat jodoh asalkan mendapat Mr. Right dan biar seorang diri daripada menjadi mangsa lelaki yang tidak beriman kemudian nanti.Memang kita mudah tersilap mentafsir kehidupan ini. Kita selalu sangka, aku pasti bahagia kalau mendapat ini. Hakikatnya, apabila kita benar-benar mendapat apa yang kita inginkan itu, ia juga datang bersama masalah.Kita juga selalu melihat orang memandu kereta mewah dan terdetiklah dihati kita, alangkah bahagianya orang itu.Hakikatnya, apabila kita sendiri telah memiliki kereta mewah, kita ditimpa pelbagai karenah.Tidak mustahil pula orang yang memandu kereta mewah terpaksa membayar lebih tatkala berhenti untuk membeli durian di tepi jalan.Ketika anda terperangkap dalam kesesakan jalan raya, motosikal mencelah-celah hingga mampu berada jauh dihadapan.Anda pun mengeluh, alangkah baiknya kalau aku hanya menunggang motosikal itu dan cepat sampai ke tempat yang dituju.
Padahal si penunggang motosikal sedang memikirkan bilakah dia akan memandu kereta.

Bukan semua yang anda sangka membahagiakan itu benar-benar membahagiakan.

Berkahwin itu indah dan nikmat bagi yang benar-benar mengerti segala tuntutannya. Berkahwin itu menjanjikan pahala tidak putus-putus bagi yang menjadikannya gelanggang untuk menjadikan syurga sebagai matlamat.
Berkahwin itu sempadan dari ketidaksempurnaan insan kepada kesempurnaan insan bagi yang mengetahui rahsia-rahsianya.Berkahwinlah demi Tuhan dan Nabi-Nya, bukan kerana perasaan dan mengikut kebiasaan.Jodoh usah terlalu dirisaukan, tiba masanya ia akan datang menjemput, namun perlu juga anda membuka lorong-lorongnya agar jemputan itu mudah sampai.
Kadangkala Allah sembunyikan matahari, Dia datangkan petir dan kilat. Kita menangis dan tertanya-tanya, kemana menghilangnya sinar. Rupa-rupanya Allah nak hadiahkan kita pelangi.
Cinta yang disemadikan tidak mungkin layu selagi ada imbas kembali.
Hati remuk kembali kukuh selagi ketenangan dikecapi.
Jiwa yang pasrah bertukar haluan selagi esok masih ada.
Parut lama pastikan sembuh selagi iman terselit di dada.
Kekayaan yang paling kaya adalah akal, kemiskinan yang paling besar adalah jahil, keburukan yang paling hodoh adalah sesat.
Tidak berguna adanya mata andai tidak dapat melihat, tak guna adanya hati kalau tak tahu menilai.
Nilailah hati itu dengan teliti sebelum pergi mengundur diri kerana segalanya bermula dengan niat yang bertempat di hati"

Another..

"Semua yang terjadi pada diri manusia itu sudah ada qada’ dan qadar nya, termasuklah soal jodoh yang merupakan antara perkara terpenting bagi seorang wanita. qada’ ialah ketentuan manakala qadar ialah sukatan. qada’ ada 2, pertama yang sudah tetap seperti kematian dan yang kedua ialah yang boleh diusahakan seperti jodoh…
bagi wanita yang sudah bertemu pilihan hati yang sesuai, dan sudah sampai masa utk berkahwin, dibolehkan utk wanita itu ‘meminta’ lelaki pilihannya melalui org tengah, spt kwn2, ustaz, atau saudara maranya. contoh terbaik adalah saidatina khadijah isteri Rasulullah, beliau meminta tolong org tengah untuk ‘bertanya’ ttg nabi. dan hasilnya sangat baik sehingga khadijah menjadi isteri yang paling dicintai nabi. subhanallah. jika niat kita benar dan ikhlas, insyaallah rahmat allah sentiasa mengiringi. jangan terlalu memikirkan kata masyarakat jika jodoh belum sampai, mulut org bukan kawalan kita kan…namun kita wajib usaha, bukan sekadar berdoa diatas tikar sejadah saja untuk dipertemukan jodoh…
bagi yang sudah berusaha spt di atas namun belum bertemu, janganlah kamu merendah diri kerana Allah amat menyayangimu, jgn sesekali kamu menggugurkan diri pada sang lelaki yang tidak halal buatmu, daripada jaga diri tak couple tetiba rasa nak couple sbb tkt tak dapt jodoh, nauzubillah, islam ada panduannya kan…inilah ujian allah utkmu utk meningkatkan imanmu…jangan putus asa…jika takdir dirimu tidak bertemu jodohmu di dunia, pasti allah balas kesabaranmu dengan suami di syurga kelak…
wallaahualam…"

haa..kan touching tuh bila baca.kan?kan?kan?i dunno how to put in words my feeling rite now.
Allah knows better.for now, i just hoping for the best in my life.thanx Allah until now U still give me a chance to breath and beribadat di atas tikar sejadahMu..syukur!

ooo la la..

2011-08-25T18:53:00.000-07:00

yahooooooooo....
meeting pengurusan bahagian postpone after raya..tq boss..i love u so much.aku harap bos aku baca blog ni.nak tunjukkan betapa aku syg kat dia bila dia postpone meeting.kehkeh.oh bahagia.

tomorrow i'll coming back my hometown membawa kuih-kuih raye yang satu lori.haha tak sia-sia mak aku lahirkan aku yang kuat melantak ni.haa satu lori aku bwk balik kuih raya.mak..wait for me mak..anakmu balik umah bawak lori kuih raye dengan kibaran jalur gemilang.hari kemerdekaan takkan dilupa.bangga makayah aku dapat anak cam aku.kan?kan?kan?

p/s: i tried to find a pic of lorry driving on the road with malaysia flag.tp xde pon.so this is only a nice n cute pic.boy running with malaysia flag.HAPPY MERDEKA MALAYSIAN!!

ok.baju raya dah beli.handbag dah beli.kasut raya?hurmm pakai kasut keje je la kot.ke ada yang nak sponsor?hamper raya dah dapat.pakwe raya je lom ade lagi.haha.ok la..for all the muslims,i wanna wishing u SELAMAT HARI RAYA.MOHON MAAF JIKA ADE TERKASAR BAHASA,TERLEBIH GURAUAN.semoga thn ni memberi lebih makna buat kita.eceh.

p/s: hati-hati balik kampung..ingatlah orang yang tersayang.

unexpected

2011-08-23T21:21:00.000-07:00

tanpa disangka-sangka maka pada hari semalam aku mengalami muntah-muntah sebanyak 10kali.orang mengandung pon tak cmtu kan.ni semua gara-gara makan di tupai-tupai.siot tol..org buka makan ayam,yang ko g makan tupai pasaipa?haa hambek.merana seharian aku semalam.makan tak hengat.moral of the story,bukalah anda hanya dengan memakan 3 biji kurma.haha.semalam amek MC.igtkan boleh la g shopping kalau dah sihat.tapi takde maknanya..seharian aku melepet kat atas katil.cam kuih lepat di dalam daun pisang.haha apa kaitan tah.
semalam gak dapat jemputan berbuka puasa di hotel grand seasons.terpaksa gak gagahkan diri untuk pergi.makan free punya pasal.sape taknak kan.tapi yang sedeynye..aku makan sikit je pon.tak lalu nak makan.fobia oi..takot sakit perut balik.tp buffet nye makanan mak oii..cam stadium.sampai tak tau nak amek yang mana.kalo aku sehat,dah penuh dah satu meja tuh dgn makanan aku sorg je.hoho.

p/s:kena ganti puasa 8 hari..

peace~

blog yang bersarang

2011-08-22T02:34:00.000-07:00

mak aii.lama betol aku tak update blog.last entri psl rejab.skrg dah masuk bulan ramadhan dah.entri utk syaaban tak sempat nak update.hehe.
anyway.happy fasting to all muslims out there.hope this year ramadhan is better than before.
tahun ni aku punyalah semangat taknak tinggalkan tarawih.dikecualikan kalau paip aku bocor la kan.hee~
tapi makin nak hbs puasa ni,makin banyak alasan untuk aku tinggalkan tarawikh.penat la..ade keje la..undangan berbuka puasa la..eceh.ko bajet ko vip?
tahun ni rs cam tak berjaya lagi nak muhasabah diri.setan takde pon bulan2 puasa ni.tp nape susah sgt nak muhasabah diri kan?nampak sgt la yang aku ni sebenarnye setan.huhu.uishh jangan..nangis makayah aku kat umah kang.
hari ni nak berbuka puasa ngn member2 kursus induksi kat tupai-tupai.takde nama lain ke dia nak bagi nama restoran?tapir-tapir ke?gajah-gajah ke?oh whatever..tp yang tak sedapnye buffet adalah bernilai RM49.pengsan mak nokk~haa..makan la sampai terkeluar perut ko.

Rejab Dah Tiba

2011-06-15T20:44:00.000-07:00

entri ini sekadar utk berkongsi tentang artikel yang aku baca.kelebihan bulan rejab.almaklumlah sekarang ni dalam proses nak muhasabah diri.tah kan iya tah kan tidak kan.tp takpe..sekurang-kurangnya niat tuh ada.hehe.
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Sabda Nabi s.a.w.: Hendaklah kamu memuliakan bulan Rejab,nescaya Allah muliakan kamu dengan seribu kemuliaan di hari kiamat.Bulan Rejab Bulan Allah, Bulan Sya'aban bulanku & bulan Ramadhan bulan umatku.

Kemuliaan Rejab dengan malam ISRAK MIKRAJnya, Sya'aban dengan malam NISFUnya Ramadhan dengan LAILATUL-QADARnya.

Malam awal Rejab mustajab do'anya.(Dalam Kitab Raudhoh Iman Nawawi)
* Puasa sehari pada bulan Rejab mendapat syurga tertinggi (Firdaus).
* Puasa dua hari dilipatgandakan pahalanya.
* Puasa tiga hari pada bulan Rejab dijadikan parit yang panjang, yang menghalangkan dia keneraka (panjangnya setahun perjalanan).
* Puasa empat hari pada bulan Rejab diafiatkan daripada bala dan daripada penyakit yang besar-besar dan daripada fitnah Dajal di hari kiamat.
* Puasa lima hari pada bulan Rejab, aman daripada azab kubur.
* Puasa enam hari pada bulan Rejab, keluar kubur bercahaya muka.
* Puasa tujuh hari pada bulan Rejab, ditutup daripada tujuh pintu neraka.
* Puasa lapan hari pada bulan Rejab, dibuka baginya lapan pintu syurga.
* Puasa sembilan hari pada bulan Rejab keluar dari kuburnya lalu, MENGUCAP DUA KALIMAH SHAHADAH tidak ditolak dia masuk syurga.
* Puasa 10 hari pada bulan Rejab Allah jadikan baginya hamparan perhentian di Titi Sirotolmustaqim pada tiap-tiap satu batu di hari kiamat.
* Puasa 16 belas hari pada bulan Rejab akan dapat melihat wajah Allah di dalam syurga dan orang yang pertama menziarahi Allah di dalam syurga.
* Puasa 19 belas hari pada bulan Rejab, dibina baginya sebuah mahligai di hadapan mahligai Nabi Allah Ibrahim a.s dan Nabi Allah Adam a.s.
* Puasa 20 hari pada bulan Rejab, diampunkan segala dosanya yang telah lalu. Maka mulailah beramal barang yang tinggi daripada umurnya (pembaharuan umur).

Berkata Saidina Ali:
* Puasa Rejab 13 hari seperti puasa tiga ribu tahun.
* Puasa Rejab 14 hari seperti puasa sepuluh ribu tahun.
* Puasa Rejab 15 hari seperti puasa seratus ribu tahun.

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showdown 2011

2011-06-08T20:13:00.000-07:00

showdown memang layan..

my bloody fav crew is HMC Phlow. u got a style guys!
hope they will win the battle.cayalah!i'm very impressed with their performance.they got the most versatile & synchronize moves, great selection of songs n whatsoever..(sounds like i am a judge ya?haha)

so everyone..lets rock the world (rock ke depa ni?)

pada sebuah ketentuan

2011-05-22T22:34:00.000-07:00

jantung tersentap..
air mata berlinangan..
akal berfikir sejenak...

itu yang berlaku bila tengok berita..kes tanah runtuh di Hulu Langat.salah siapa?

salah tangan manusia yang begitu rakus dengan arus pembangunan yang pesat?

aku tak punya jawapan untuk itu.mungkin ya.kerakusan manusia menyebabkan alam memberontak.

tapi aku punya jawapan untuk mengatakan bahawa semuanya adalah ketentuan Allah.Allah Maha Mengetahui setiap apa yang berlaku.aku berfikir sejenak.menginsafi diri.semoga roh-roh mereka yang terkorban ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman.Amin ya rabbal alamin...

tak sanggup melihat wajah-wajah mereka yang trauma selepas kejadian.sedih.pilu.sebak perasaan aku. tak terbayang oleh aku bagaimana mereka menghadapi saat-saat yang telah ditentukan oleh Allah itu.."kun fayakun".siapa kita utk menghalang?semoga ianya menjadi pengajaran buat kita.

Al-fatihah kepada semua adik-adikku yang telah pergi buat selama-lamanya..semoga roh mu dicucuri rahmat oleh Yang Maha Esa. dan pada yang masih hidup..didoakan semoga kamu sentiasa tabah dengan ujian yang telah diberikan ini. Yang pergi tetap akan pergi dan kita yang masih hidup perlu teruskan kehidupan dengan berpegang pada tali Allah.insyaAllah..segala keperitan akan berakhir.lots of love~

bila hati sudah mati..

2011-05-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

lately,day by day i think about my work.how it is going to be.i couldn't see clear about my jobspec.i do marketing.u see..how am i going to work?i have no passion about marketing..never!frankly speaking..i don't like deal with people. because in marketing u have to meet people,deal with people or whatsoever. and also u have to think the strategy how to market the products and expand your business matching.hey..u think i've studied bout that?never!oh man..i'm dead!bila hati sudah mati....

menyesal?

aku taknak menyesal sbb tak pilih jbtn pertanian.kau yang pilih jln ni..so u have to accept it. tp hati menangis sape yang tahu.eceh!aku tgk kwn aku yang kerja kt JP mcm best je.at least jobspec diorang clear.tak mcm aku.menyesal ke?hurm..tah la.yang dok keje kt putrajaya best je.dpt kuarters yg sgt bsr.kalo kt KL, harga kondo sebesar tuh mau setgh juta kot.jeles?ye saya jeles..

bila hati sudah mati....

happy anniversary!

2011-05-02T19:27:00.000-07:00

happy labor day everyone!

and today is my 1st anniversary working at RISDA. setahun dah aku keje kt sini. kalau beranak, dah pandai merangkak dah anak aku kot. fuhh! xsangka. times going fast.

and today i come to work with empty heart but full of peace. punch card tak berwarna merah. dan kerja memaki hamun dalam kereta pon x berlaku pada pagi yang indah ini.what a beautiful day!

i lost my spirit to start working. memang spirit aku untuk bekerja x penah sampai tahap maksima gila babis.semua nye tahap2 ayam yang gila. tah bila nye nak bersemangat tah.

p/s:jangan jadi macam saya ya.
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kadang-kadang kita cuba nak puaskan hati semua orang tapi percayalah.

takkan boleh!

so be who u are. do what you like to do. do good, be good and u will feel good.
and don't forget to recite doa. ask Allah to give the strength to go through this life happily no matter how hard it is. so everyone..

cheers!

Brilliant ideas of Dr M....

2011-04-21T19:28:00.000-07:00

The Scenic or `Crooked' Bridge. No one would disagree if we were to say that this is the most stupid idea yet to come out of Dr Mahathir's mind. Why build half a bridge? Why build such a silly looking bridge that would wind its way around because it had to join the Causeway halfway across the Straits of Johor or Tebrau Straits?

If they built a full bridge, then the bridge could be built straight, lower and shorter at maybe almost the same cost as half a bridge. But now they are building half a bridge, so it has to be crooked and higher -- and the cost for half a bridge is not half the cost of a full, straight bridge. But they can't build a straight or full bridge because Singapore will not allow their half of the Causeway to be demolished and they are not interested in building the other half of the bridge on their side or within their territorial waters.

Singapore could of course agree to join Malaysia in this bridge project and agree to the Causeway being demolished and a full, straight bridge be built to replace the Causeway. But Singapore wanted the bridge to be packaged with a lot of other goodies, all in Singapore's favor. These goodies would be like throwing in the supply of sand, allowing Singapore Air Force planes more flights over Malaysian air space, plus a re-look at the water agreement.

Dr Mahathir did not agree to this. He would not package the bridge with all these other issues and he wanted each issue to be an issue by itself and to be negotiated separately and on its own merits. Dr Mahathir was no fool. He knew if he rejected Singapore's demand for a packaged deal, then Singapore would not agree to the bridge. Malaysia could go on with the bridge if it wanted, but it can only build a bridge on Malaysia's side, not on Singapore's side. Therefore it would have to be a silly-looking half-bridge that would need to be highly elevated and winding.

That was exactly what Dr Mahathir wanted. He wanted Singapore to reject the full, straight bridge idea and stipulate that Malaysia can only build half a bridge if it still insisted on proceeding with the plan. Dr Mahathir did not want a full bridge. He wanted a half-bridge. A full bridge would mean it would have to be straight and therefore low. A half-bridge would force the bridge to curve and therefore it would have to be built highly elevated.

What Dr Mahathir really wanted is the space beneath the bridge which a full bridge would not offer while a half-bridge would. And why did he want this space? He wanted it because he wanted large container ships and oil tankers to be able to sail under the bridge.

The Straits of Melaka is one of the busiest sea lanes in the world. But ships plying the Straits cannot reach Johor Port unless they sail around Singapore. So they would rather stop at the Port of Singapore instead of coming to Johor. Even ships carrying goods bound for Malaysia would rather stop at Singapore for transhipment to Malaysia rather than sail to Malaysia. Once there is a highly elevated bridge, then the ships can bypass Singapore and come straight to Malaysia.

In short, a highly elevated `crooked' bridge would boost the viability of Johor Port and pose a serious threat to the Port of Singapore. To be more dramatic, the bridge could actually kill the Port of Singapore and make Johor Port the new centre for imports to and exports from Malaysia -- plus for those Indonesian importers and exporters as well who currently would rather use Singapore than sail the extra distance around Singapore to come to Johor.

That was what Dr Mahathir really wanted. He was not actually interested in the bridge. He was more interested in Malaysia overtaking Singapore in the port business. And the crooked, high, half-bridge would be able to achieve this. A straight, low, full bridge would not. Dr Mahathir very cleverly manoeuvred so that Singapore would disagree with the full bridge and would instead ask Malaysia to proceed with half a bridge. Once they said that, Dr Mahathir got them exactly where he wanted them. The half-bridge is Singapore's idea, not Dr Mahathir's, so Singapore cannot now turn around and say that they had been tricked and the bridge was merely a Red Herring and that the real motive was to outdo the Port of Singapore.

Somehow, along the way, Malaysia's Foreign Minister packaged the supply of sand and more SAF flights over Malaysian air space in the bridge deal. Dr Mahathir never agreed to this. But Abdullah did for reasons known only to himself and his son-in-law, Khairy Jamaluddin. The sand would of course come from Johor and those individuals who will be awarded the contract to supply sand to Singapore are family members of those involved in the decision-making process at the very top echelons of power -- those walking in the corridors of power. The supply of sand is not a government effort but a private arrangement. What is even more perturbing to Dr Mahathir is that Singapore did not demand that the supply of sand be included in the deal. This idea came from Malaysia. It was Malaysia that proposed it, not Singapore that demanded it.

When the Johor Menteri Besar found out about the supply of sand arrangement he was outraged. Dr Mahathir had banned the export of sand back in 1997 and Johor was quite happy with this as the sand was coming from Johor and it is the politicians and their cronies who are making hundreds of millions out of it. For the first time in his life this very polished man who always has a sweet smile for anyone he encounters lost his cool. He never raises his voice, especially to the Prime Minister. But that day he did and he told the Prime Minister that Umno Johor will strongly oppose any Johor sand being sold to Singapore. Even the palace got into the act and there was a danger of another Constitutional Crisis erupting.

In short, there was a mutiny and Johor was in revolt. A crisis never before seen in Malaysian history was about to explode. This was a state-federal conflict in the making. Abdullah had blundered big time. He had agreed that the bridge would include the supply of sand to Singapore. Now Johor, the source of the sand, put its foot down and threatened to resist at whatever cost, and Johor can be as independent as Kelantan if it so wishes.

They would also reveal the names of all those who stand to benefit from this supply of sand; family members of those at the very top of the Abdullah administration. If you think the Mahathir-Anwar crisis was exciting, the supply of sand to Singapore would dwarf this by far.
Two days later, Abdullah announced that the bridge project would be aborted, after starting work on it (and incurring a liability of RM100 million). Three weeks before that, Parliament had reiterated the bridge project would go on and the Minister of Works himself assured Parliament that this would be so. But now it was off. They would not be proceeding with the bridge. They could not proceed with it. To proceed with it would mean they have to supply sand to Singapore. And this would create a massive crisis between the federal government and the Johor state government. The only way out of the supply of sand commitment would be to abort the bridge project. No bridge, no sand, and no federal government-Johor state government crisis, plain and simple.

But it is out of the frying pan, into the fire. Without the bridge, there would be no way ships could sail to Johor Port through the Straits and the Port of Singapore would continue to dominate this region. Dr Mahathir's plan to build up Johor Port and challenge Singapore's dominance was thwarted. And it was thwarted by no other than his successor who had promised him that the bridge would go on. And it was thwarted because some greedy people in the decision-making team had tried to get rich quick through selling sand to Singapore by packaging the sand supply deal in the bridge proposal.

Dr Mahathir was hopping mad. Abdullah had made a big booboo, and to get out of this booboo he cancelled the bridge project. Abdullah was trying to save his arse. But in doing so he sacrificed Malaysia. Johor Port would now have to remain as pathetic as it has always been. And the Port of Singapore would remain the big wheel of this region. Flushed down the toilet is Dr Mahathir's plan for overtaking Singapore. And, to make it worse, Abdullah had promised Dr Mahathir the bridge would go on. And he understood fully well why it must. And he realised that the bridge was for the good of Malaysia's commerce. But saving his arse was his first priority. Saving Johor Port has to come second.

That is the story of the `Crooked' Bridge. There are many other stories such as about the double tracking railway line, the national car, and more. Suffice to say, the double tracking railway line had the same objective as the `Crooked' Bridge; in that Malaysia's commerce would improve and Singapore's dominance in the region would be given a serious challenge. But Abdullah aborted this as well.

The double tracking railway line was actually the first move. Once the double tracking was done, then the high speed train was supposed to follow. Imagine the day when one could live in a cheaper town like Ipoh where property prices are half those in the big city, yet work in Kuala Lumpur -- and the time it takes to get to work from Ipoh would be faster than driving from Subang Jaya to Kuala Lumpur today. The small towns would boom and development would be spread out throughout the country instead of concentrated in a few key areas like it is today. But that too now remains just a dream.

The MV Agusta matter is another issue. Dr Mahathir was going to use MV Agusta to develop a peoples' car (volks wagen) that could be marketed for as low as RM10,000, or less. MV Agusta had the technology to do this and the cost to buy MV Agusta, in spite of it debts, was still lower than embarking on this project doing your own R&D from scratch. R&D costs billions of Ringgit and to develop a car from scratch would not only cost more but would be time consuming as well. Even if you are prepared to pay the higher cost, the time would take too long. MV Agusta was a short cut and at a cheaper price on top of that.

But MV Agusta was sold off for RM4 and Dr Mahathir's RM10,000 peoples' car went down the toilet, just like all the others. In fact, the sale of MV Agusta itself raises other questions. How did they decide who to sell it to and do those in the decision-making process have an interest in the company that bought MV Agusta? (Which raises the issue of conflict of interest.) Dr Mahathir knows the real story, as he does about who those sand suppliers are, but he is not revealing all, at least not just yet.

It is not that Abdullah is ignorant about all this. He knows the agenda behind the `Crooked' Bridge, double tracking railway line, MV Agusta, and much more. He knows that all these are mere catalysts for bigger things. And he agreed that these are necessary for the future of the country. Yet he dismantled them one by one just to make it appear like Dr Mahathir is stupid and that all his ideas are stupid. It is all about politics and of trying to undermine Dr Mahathir. And what better way to do this than to dismantle what Dr Mahathir started and give the impression that the previous Prime Minister was a nut case. So the country suffers. So what? That is the small picture. The big picture is: Dr Mahathir is embarrassed.

The Free Trade Agreement (FTA) is another thing that Dr Mahathir was and still is against. All those years he was prime minister he resisted the FTA. Then, late last year, Abdullah secretly signed the FTA with Japan whereby Japanese automobiles would have free access to the Malaysian market while Malaysian vegetables would have free access to the Japanese market. Malaysian vegetables? What vegetables do we have that we can export to Japan? We do not even grow enough for our own consumption and almost everything we eat needs to be supplemented with imports. Anyway, do the Japanese eat our vegetables? Abdullah might as well have signed an FTA with Canada whereby we export ice cubes to the Eskimos.

The FTA Abdullah signed with Japan was so confidential that even the Cabinet did not know about it until Abdullah informed its members later, after it had been signed. The Cabinet members were shocked, but by then it was too late to do anything about it. And how is Proton going to survive once Japanese cars get free access to the Malaysian market when even Europe and the United States can't compete with them?

Proton is a dead man walking. Its days are numbered and it will be just a matter of time when the national car folds. As the Malays would say: siap kain kapan (prepare the funeral shroud).
Now the United States also wants the FTA with Malaysia signed and the US-Malaysia FTA would open all government contracts and procurement to US companies. That is the end of the New Economic Policy. The days of the Bumiputera businessmen are numbered. Malays will have to revert to becoming clerks and drivers again.

Dr Mahathir is beginning to doubt whether Abdullah knows what he is doing. As far as Dr Mahathir is concerned, whatever he did, he did with the interest of the nation at heart. But Abdullah's moves, the way Dr Mahathir sees it, are moves of a traitor who does not care about the country's interest. Dr Mahathir is quite prepared to allow Abdullah to run this country the way he, as Prime Minister, sees fit. But Dr Mahathir will not remain silent and allow this state of affairs to continue if, as he put it, Malaysia's sovereignty is jeopardised. Dr Mahathir would rather take on Abdullah than allow the man to destroy this country. Not just Dr Mahathir, but many Umno veterans as well believe that power in the hands of Abdullah is like giving a flower to a monkey. Monkeys do not appreciate the beauty of flowers .

~I spent my time to read all this good information~
source:http://crookedlittlemind.blogspot.com/2006/07/kredit-redza-minhat-borrow-borrowed.html

::take a break for a while::

2011-04-20T20:24:00.000-07:00

nothing much to write.
just settled buat minit mesyuarat. mode:otak jammed.
I think I have to take a break. not with kit kat.but with this cutest blog.ohoo.lama dh x update.

I really passionate about redza minhat.lately.i dunno why.perhaps he is a most eligible bachelor =p. almost everyday i viewed his blog.even he did not update.i love the way he wrote in his blog. superb!even sometimes i couldn't understand what he tried to deliver. whatever.

For those guys who do not know Redza Minhat (initial spells RM)..here i showed u his photo.

i copied from his FB.see..how handsome he is.of course the right one.what about the left one?u judge!

ok this one i copied from his sister's blog.see..how passionate i am.sampaikan adik akak cucu cicit dia punye blog pon aku nak view.masyaAllah.

that smiled only for me.ahaks.berdegup jantungku,bila kau senyum padaku..ah~ah~

ok.ok.thats enough for today.
got to settle down my works yang bertimbun haram jadah ni..

peace!!

Ayah dan Ibu

2011-03-25T11:20:00.000-07:00

induction course 14-24 march 2011

2011-03-25T10:55:00.000-07:00

just finished induction course.guess wut?it was really interesting even schedule really packed.i met new frens.i hope i could met sumone special.simple word 'boyfriend'.but unfortunately,it wouldn't happened at all.ahaks.most of them dah jadik bapak org, suami org, tunang org n pakwe org.so thanks but no thanks.moral of the story: find other person at other induction course.hee~

discussion..konon2..

'wings' the best

some of them.luv u guys!!

b4 public speaking.got butterfly in my stomach.

cheers!!

my.story.

2011-03-25T08:28:00.000-07:00

www.this-is-my-story.com/v/808W6N62XN6

lets watch this video n do give ur salutation to me.
ahaks.

cheers.

tawakal..

2010-07-16T02:28:00.000-07:00

corat-coret:

today's feeling=sad
tomorrow?still sad
day after tomorrow..mb still sad..
until when??..i dunno...hurm..life is so complicated lately..

x lame lagik aku akan tgl kan RISDA..gudbye RISDA..walaupon baru 3 bln aku kt cni,tp byk benda yg aku blajar..tekanan kerja??of course ade..tp biase laa..dh nm pon keje..hurm..aku dh wat surat notis peletakan jawatan rabu(14/7) rituh..n hopefully everything will move smoothly..n aku kena bersedia dari segi mental n fizikal utk tukar keje baru..Jabatan Pertanian..yg plg x syok aku kena lapor diri kt Kompleks Pertanian Ayer Hitam..makkkkkkk...nape jauh sgt..hurm...xsgp nye nak g..

at 1st place..aku tekad xnak g sbb jauh..dh syok keje kt jln ampang neh..tp biler pikir2 blik..dlm 2,3 thn lagik aku kena posting gak..tah2 lagik jauh..aku wat solat istikharah n skrg neh aku TAWAKAL pilih JP..then, aku amek pusing gak ckp2 org len..kebykkan nye ckp rugi x amek JP..skop lagik luas..then sng nak tukar tempat kalo kena posting..gpon keje x tensen sgt cm RISDA..n yg plg penting nt dh kwen sng..sng nak ikot laki..huhu..biler pikir kebaikan for long terms,aku tekad pilih JP..

tp sedey gak laa...terpakse jauh ngn famili,kwn2 n dia..hurm....xpelah..mgkn dgn pemergian aku jauh drp dia blh membuatkan aku melupakan dia..eceh!!!!hahaha..mn tau jmpa jodoh kt tmpt bru ke kan..haha..tp tah laa..ssh nak syg org len..hurm..i just go wif da flow..

aku harap pilihan aku neh adalah yg terbaek..n aku mohon Allah iringi pilihan aku neh dgn berkat dan rahmatNya..aminn..yg penting niat kerja adalah kerana Allah..eceh..cm stazah laa plak...

sooner::::::::::I WILL SAY GOODBYE TO RISDA...=(

HappyBirthdayAyah..

2010-05-20T20:56:00.000-07:00

yeah rini dh jumaat..cant wait to go back home..n today is a special day bcos we'll celebrating ayah's burfday..but not today kot..mb tomorrow..nak beli kek..n present abg aku dh beli..pen PARKER..tp aku x tgk lagik..neway HAPPY 54th BIRTHDAY AYAH..

dan semalam..ade benda x best yg berlaku..pas aku solat asar tiba2 dia msj..awk,ade benda sy rahsia dr awk..sory yea..aku pon dh x sedap ati..dh tunang ke mamat neh??kwen dh ke??huhu..pas tuh aku reply..hurm ape dia zaid?dh sdey dh ms tuh..huhu..pas tuh dpt msj..sy accident..hadoiiiii..trus aku kol dia..patah 3gigi..jahit bibir..muka bengkak..sian plak aku dgr citer dia..tp syukur laa dia selamat..

semalam tiba2 aku feeling lyn lagu mariah carey "Hero"..haha jiwang seh..tp aku suka lirik dia..

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you....

kames yg suram..huhu

2010-05-12T22:09:00.000-07:00

semalam...

aku lapar giler pas blik keje..aku xtau nak mkn pe..tibe2 terigt kt dia..so aku msj dia ajk tmn aku g mkn..dia ok jek..kitorg kuar pas isyak..tgu dia kt kdai mkn dpn LRT sg besi..aku x excited pon nak jmpa dia..tp tah laa..sj jek nak jmpa..pas tuh kitorg borak laa psl keje,psl makcik aku(huhu) dan byk lagik psl laa..huhu..tp ade saat tuh (eceh...) aku tergerak mulut tny dia psl awek dia..dia xnak citer sbenanye..dia gelak2 smbil geleng kepala..aku ckp tlg laa bgtau.."awak x percaya kan sy ke?"tuh soalan aku..pas tuh dia kata.."ish awk neh..bkn cmtuh laa..sy bkn x caye"..mmg payah tol nak korek rahsia dr dia..aku tny biler dia nak kwen?..dia gelak jek..aku ckp ngn dia aku nak kwen dulu b4 dia..aku ckp jom janji nak sy kwen dulu b4 awk..awk kena tgu sy kwen dulu..pas tuh dia ckp..eh jgn laa cmtuh wak..mn tau jodoh sy awal plak dr awk..aku sdey dia ckp cmtuh..sbb dia mmg dh ade perncgn nak kwen..pas tuh byk lagik benda sedey yg berlaku..mata aku dh bergenang dh ms tuh..aku rs dia perasan kot..aku tny dia.."awk,sy neh jht kan?ajk awk kuar"..dia kata"awk,kalo awk jht sy x kuar ngn awk tau..awk jgn laa ckp cmtuh"..pas tuh aku tunduk muka aku,mata dh bergenang..aku senyap..dia pon senyap..dia tenung aku..uwaaaaaa..nape cmneh?nape aku sdey sgt?dia xbg aku pape hrpn..dr cara dia aku tau dia dh ade perncgn nak kwen..tuh yg aku sdey..tp aku xleh nak wat pape..kalo tuh jodoh dia..aku doakan yg terbaek utk dia..dlm kol 1130 pm bru kitorg blik..pas tuh dia msj aku dh smpai umah ke blom?aku ckp aku dh sampai..sy mintak maap kalo soalan sy td wat awk x selesa..pas tuh dia reply.."soalan awk tu btl2 soalan maut tau..tp sy xksh pon awk nk tny pe pon..sy tau prasaan awk,sy m.maaf sgt2 kalo sy dh wat awk sdey n kcwa ngn sy ye..xde niat lgsg sy nak wat awk sdey n kecewa..hurm,pepon awk mmg kwn plg baek bg sy,sy xkan lupakan awk smpai biler2"..sdey kan?tp aku xleh nk wat pape..aku xleh nak mrh dia..sbb dia mmg agp aku x lbey dr sorg kwn..aku sygkan dia..kalo xdpt kwen ngn dia pon xpe lah..aku agp jek xde jodoh..tp cmne aku nak kuatkan hati aku utk syg dia xlbey dr sorg kwn?aku x boleh nak tinggalkan dia trus..sbb aku nmpk keikhlasan dia sygkan aku sbg kwn bek..so aku xleh nak putuskan hub kwn ngn dia..tp aku kena kuatkan hati..aku kena cr pengganti dia..tp pintu hati aku cm dh tertutup..cmne?

semalam gak....

aku dpt msj drp kak shikin..."Alhamdulillah,I'm safely delivered a baby boy@7.45pm 12/5/10 name:Raes Zafran,weight:3.1kg"..seronok nye dgr..congrats kak shikin!!

4th day@RISDA...

2010-05-05T18:43:00.000-07:00

pg2 neh dh terigt UPM..aku rindu sgt kt UPM..kwn2,lab,kolej,kuar mkn mlm2...serius aku ckp aku mmg rindu zmn dok kt UPM dulu....

but now..perjlnn idop aku dh berubah..u like it or not..u have to go on with your life now..live with your work,your aunt's house(quite boring cos makcik aku selalu blik mlm..kol 11 bru smpai umah..seriously aku mmg sgt boring),with traffic jam everywhere(I really hate that)..everyday aku mengira hari utk blik umah..yes tomorrow is friday..itulah hari yg aku nantikan..cant wait to go back home..at this moment I really miss my mak n ayah..mak ayah....anak mu sgt boring di sini..=(

pagi tadi tibe2 aku sedey..aku call farah..tah xtau nape nak call dia..dgn x semena-mena aku ngis..aku ckp aku rindu UPM..aku rindu kwn2..aku rindu mamat tuh...nape mst mamat tuh yg aku rindu?tolong laa pergi jauh drp hati n fikiran aku leh tak...smlm aku ade cek facebook dia..nape gatal sgt tgn neh..aku search dia..pas tuh kt situ aku nmpk dia ade komen sorg gambar ppuan neh..comey..dia komen "budak kecik...hehehe"..tp biler aku tgk kt wall dia..xde pon tulis kt situ dia komen gambar ppuan tuh..mgkn dia dh remove aktiviti dia tuh..ape motifnye?dia cuba nak sorok kan aktiviti dia tp aku tau gak..tibe2 tergerak hati nak carik dia kt search box..dulu kalo nak carik dia,aku carik kt friend's list..so biler dh carik kt search box..nt ade kuar kt situ ape latest activity dia..kt situ yg aku tau dia komen gmbr ppuan tuh..tp biler g kt profile dia,tgk wall dia..xde plak activity dia tuh..dia dh remove..xnak org tau laa yg dia komen gmbr ppuan tuh..motif???hurm...tah la..bg aku benda neh kecik jek..xde pape pon nak disedihkan tp tah laa...dgn idop aku yg boring neh mgkn menyebabkan aku amek pusing benda2 yg kecik neh..aku wat solat hajat n istikharah smlm dgn penuh pengharapan..mmg ngis teruk2 sgt smlm..tah laa..aku mohon Allah kawal hati aku..kalo xdpt petunjuk melalui mimpi pon..aku hrp Allah gerakkan hati aku..kalo dia jodoh aku,aku mintak Allah dkt kan dia dgn aku..tp kalo dia bkn jodoh aku,aku mintak Allah bantu aku lupakan dia,palingkan hati aku drp menyintai dia..skrg neh aku just go with da flow..

td ms aku call farah..ade sorg staff nmpk aku ngis..malu nyer..aku xnak dia fikir yg aku ngis sbb keje..nt dia fikir ape plak..hurm..aku dh seboleh daya cover bwh meja ckp kt phone..huhuhu..aku nak jek ckp kt dia aku ngis sbb mamat xde motif tuh..leh x??nape ssh sgt nak lupakan dia..dh laa kt cni aku x jmpa sape2 pon yg leh jd pengganti dia..staff kt cni ramai ppuan..lelaki pon dh tua..cmne??tp aku kuatkan hati..ade jodoh x kemana..

seriously deep in my heart...aku bosan dok tgh KL neh..serabut kepala..Ya Allah kuatkan hati ku Ya Allah...

Lunch@Chakri Xpress

2010-04-29T07:34:00.000-07:00

Bru nak update yesterday's event....

11.30am: accompanied kak ila g carboot sale..niat asal just nak teman dia jek..tp last2 aku yg borong lebey..haha..i bought 3 tudung..haa melambak duet aku kuar..

1.30pm: me,kak shikin n kak ila having lunch kt chakri xpress@alamanda

tomyam dia sgt yummy..teragkt seh..bwh neh menu2 yg kitorg order..

Me n kak ila's menu: Sawasdee Xpress Set Lunch RM10.90(Appertizer: Chakri Trio Combo+ Main Menu+ Dessert)+topup RM3 for iced lemon tea

Appetizer

Main menu: Thai Village Fried Rice

Dessert: Chilled Red Ruby Chestnut

yeah..our most favourite menu..red tomyam..kak shikin's menu. This is not included in lunch set =)

and photography time...wif kak shikin..mommy wanna be..just waiting 4 the day..hehe

and also wif kak ila...nape muka kita nmpk cm mendung itam jek kak ila??haha

anyway thanx 2 kak shikin for da treat..luv u kak shikin..=)

5pm: g mines accompanied shida beli tripod..tibe2 aku terigt nak beli blower utk kamera aku..nah..keluar lagik duet aku RM32..

isnin yg membengangkan..

2010-04-26T01:17:00.000-07:00

rini aku xtau nak gambarkan perasaan aku...geram??sedey??xde perasaan??

jumaat 23/4: aku msj dia..ajk dia kuar ari ahd..(dia amek ms yg lame nak reply msj aku)..jeng3..pas tuh dia reply dia ckp dia mb teman akak dia g KL..tp kalo xjd,nt kita kuar k..aku pon ckp laa...kalo berat ati,xpe laa..xnak paksa..pas tuh dia reply.."eh bkn berat ati laa..nape ckp cmtuh..jgn pk bkn2 laa..sy xde hal pon nak kuar ngn awk..tp sy kena tmn akak sy..pas tuh aku ckp laa.."yelah sy neh kwn ngn pkwe org..mst laa kena pk gak benda2 cmtuh. g pon sy xnak laa nmpk cm sy neh memaksa awk kuar ngn sy"..pas tuh dia reply.."ish awk ni..nape ckp cmtuh..xbek tau(ape yg x bek nye tah..ade hati lagik nak sorok2 ngn aku...eeeeeeeee geram)...kita kan berkwn bek..sy xde hal pon nak kuar ngn awk..awk xde memakse papepon k..jgn pk bkn2 k.."..pas tuh aku mls nak pjg kan citer,aku ckp.."ok.."

ahad 25/4: aku tgu dia msj aku ckp jd ke x..tp dia x mesej2..aku dok laa tgu cm org bodoh..(xde laa tgu sgt..sbb mmg dh agk dia xkan kuar ngn aku nye..tp at least,mesej laa aku ckp jd ke x kan..ni x..wat aku tertgu2 cm org bodoh)..pas tuh aku msj dia.."awk ade hal ke rini?senyap jek.." pas tuh dia reply.."sori wak..sy kt KL lagik..xtau laa sempat ke x nak kuar ngn awk..kalo sempat nt sy bgtau ek..tp kalo x sempat,kita kuar len kali tau"..pas tuh aku balas ringkas dan padat.."ok xpe"..bajet nak merajuk tp pujuk diri sendirik jek laa..aku hrp dia pujuk,tp hampeh..smpai laa ni dia x mesej aku pape..bodoh kan aku????at least mintak laa maap ckp x dpt nak kuar..hurm tah laa..ssh nak phm perangai dia..aku xtau samada aku ptt melancarkan misi merajuk aku ke x..kalo nak merajuk,terpikir gak sape laa aku..bkn nye awek dia..tp kalo nak wat cm bese,rs cm tipu diri sendirik...hurmmmmm

isnin 26/4: aku cek fb dia..elok jek aku tgk dia komen gmbr org pd pukul 430pm 25/4..KL ape tuh???????benda tuh yg wat kan aku sedey..nape nak tipu aku?kalo betol dia mls nak kuar,ckp jek laa mls..aku leh jek terima drp dia tipu aku cmtuh..dia spoil mood aku rini..nape ssh sgt aku nak lupakan dia neh...benci2 tp rindu..uwaaaaaaaaaaaa

~My D.R.E.A.M~

2010-03-22T01:32:00.000-07:00

saat2 cmneh aku terasa ingin memilik DSLR...wah3..

tolong bg aku duet...

nt senang la kalo kwn2 kwen lagik..leh jd kan aku sbg photographer korg..

ngehngehngeh~~

adakah jeles??

2010-03-19T02:03:00.000-07:00

tahun neh ramai giler kwn2 aku yg tunang n kwen

adakah aku jeles??

bkn jeles..tp dok terpikir biler laa turn aku kan..hehe..dh gatal sgt ke..

bkn gatal..tp impikan sebuah keluarga yg bahagia bersama org tersyg..best2!!

sapekah anda wahai org tersyg??hahaha...

maslia's wedding....=)

aju's engagement...=)

2010..

2010-02-18T00:47:00.000-08:00

I'm 24 dis year..but not yet until I meet 18 July 2010..hehe

nuthing interesting happens to me..but I hope for it..I got a job,someone propose me..Oh God!!I wait 4 dat to happen..

Everyday is the same..

'He' still exist in my life..sucks!!bile dia nak blah dr idop aku haa...But I can't let him go..Ya Allah..plz help me to go through dis life happily..'He' dh tukar keje kt putrajaya smlm..means dat 'He' dh dkt ngn awek 'He'..so..makan ati ulam jantung lagik laa aku..hurm..when dis story wanna finish huh..DAMN!!

But I have to be positive kan..go with the flow..jgn mengharap!!dats it..but how??hurm..ina, u can do it!!

I'm back...=)

2009-11-01T08:09:00.000-08:00

Uish..it's been a long time x bukak blog aku neh..ape ye nak post..hurm xde pape sbenanye..tp td aku ade terbace 1 artikel neh..aku ske ayt2 motivasi yg dia bg.."Anda perlu percaya bhw jika sesuatu itu ditakdirkan utk anda, biar sejauh mana dia terbang meninggalkan anda,dia pasti akan kembali. Sebaliknya, jika sesuatu itu ternyata bukan ditakdirkan utk anda, maka lakukanlah apa jua yg anda fikirkan akan merubah hatinya..dia tdk akan berubah kerana dia ditakdirkan bkn utk anda. Kehidupan ini berjalan atas qada dan qadar, maka usah diragui rencana Allah krn tiada kekasih yg gemar melihat kekasihnya dlm kedaifan apatah lagi Yang Maha Mencintai dan Maha Melindungi. Percayalah tiada satu pun rencana Allah itu salah, hanya kita yang tidak berjalan atas qada dan qadar krn keinginan kita yg tidak selari dgn keinginan Allah. Selarikanlah..anda pasti bahagia dan gembira, tiada duka jauh sekali jiwa luka"..touching aight??thumbs up!!

I'm WaiTinG 4 NuThiNg...=(

2009-09-14T22:42:00.000-07:00

semalam dia mesej aku..ayt bek punya..nape laa dia ske wat aku mengharap cmneh..yg x thn..mlm smlm mesej sume sdey2..dia ckp thanks cos sudi jadik kwn bek dia..tp sy tau..awk msh mrhkan sy kan..pas tuh aku reply..sy takot nak kwn ngn awk sbenanye tp sy xleh lupakan awk..(ceh aku pon wat ayt bek punya)..dia kate dia pon xsgp nak lupakan aku..napelah idop kita neh byk cbrn dan dugaan kan..pas tuh aku pon mula laa wat kuliah kt dia..tuh laa psl..pas 1,1 mslh yg dtg..tp ape sj yg berlaku ade hikamh di sebaliknye kan..ape yg penting kita doa mintak dipermudahkan dan mintak yg terbek..(time tuh dh meleleh dh air mata..aishhh..)byk laa lagik msj sdey yg kua..yg plg xthn..dia ckp dia tau aku sdey sgt n dia pon rs sdey sbb wat aku cmneh..tp ape kan daye..ade org len yg muncul lbey awl drp aku..ayt tuh yg aku xsgp nak bace..nape dia pelu ckp cmtuh..adoiyaiiiii..i'm waiting 4 nuthing aight???bodohnyer aku...Ya Allah cptlah temukan jodoh aku..xsgp dh nak cmneh..=(

NuThiNg...

2009-09-09T01:33:00.000-07:00

lame gak x bukak blog neh..rini cam bese jek..xde benda menarik berlaku dlm idop aku..seperti bese g keje lwt..kol 9lbey bru smpai..hehe..tp aku hangin gak laa pg td..g je kt kete dh ade notis saman kesalahan parking kete menghalang kenderaan lain..hehe..silap aku gak..sape soh bgn lmbt..lantak laa..aku mls nak byr..hurm..rini still teringat lg kt dier..tp dh ok ckit kot..dh xksh lg la dier nak mesej ke x..aku nak teruskan idop aku dgn harapan yg baru,semangat yg baru..tutup buku lame bukak buku baru..eceh!!

Miss him like hell...

2009-08-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

ari neh dier xmesej2 aku pon..I really miss him like hell..tp ape jek yg aku leh wat..mkn ati jek laa..everytime teringt kt dier mst rs nak ngis..doa jek yg wat kan aku kuat nak menghadapi kenyataan neh..aku mintak Allah bg aku kekuatan nak lupakan dier..
Ya Allah..seandainya telah engkau takdirkan dia bukan milikku..bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku..luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan..
Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti..berikanlah aku kekuatan melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit hilang bersama senja nan merah..agarku sentiasa tenang walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya..
Ya Allah Yang Tercinta..pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu..sesungguhnya apa yg telah engkau takdirkan adalah yg terbaik buatku..sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala yg terbaik buat hamba Mu ini..
Ya Allah..cukuplah engkau sahaja yg menjadi pemeliharaku..di dunia dan akhirat..dengarlah rintihan dr hamba Mu yg daif ini..Janganlah Engkau biarkan aku bersendirian..di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat..menjuruskan aku ke arah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran..maka kurniakanlah aku seorg pasangan yg beriman..agar aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup ke jalan yg Engkau redhai..dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yg soleh dan solehah..AMIN..

FiRsT NepHew

2009-08-27T23:36:00.000-07:00

24/8/09 aku dpt anak buah pertama..baby boy..yeww~..name dia muhammad zharief bin mohd zaimi..zaimi tuh abg aku..huhu..dpt dukung dia walaupon aku takot nak dukung..bdn kecik+lembik..berat 2 kg jek..aku skrg dh jadik makcik..opss..auntie ina..haha..perasan seyh...

ssshhhh...dia tgh tido tuh..

..MuHaMmAd ZhAriEf..

what do you think about lurve???

2009-08-27T22:31:00.000-07:00

Cinta itu banyak pengertian..tapi bg aku cinta adalah kawan sejati. Org yg mencintaimu meskipun telah mengenalimu dengan sebenar-benarnya iaitu baik dan burukmu. Setiap yg kita lakukan biarlah jujur kerana kejujuran itu terlalu penting dalam sebuah kehidupan. Tanpa kejujuran hidup sentiasa menjadi mainan org. Oleh itu jgn tertarik kpd seseorg kerana parasnya, sebab keelokan paras dpt menyesatkan. Jgn pula tertarik kepada kekayaannya kerana kekayaan dapat musnah. Tertariklah kpd seseorg yg dpt membuatmu tersenyum, kerana hanya senyum yg dpt membuat hari-hari yg gelap menjadi cerah ibarat kata org..setiap bunga mawar pasti ada durinya. Dari kesusahan itu akan diperolehi kesenangan dan kebahagiaan seperti durian berduri kerana sedap isinya, kulit manggis pahit sebab manis di dalamnya dan bunga ros berduri kerana harum baunya. Dan jika seseorang hadir dalam hidup kamu dan menjadi sebahagian daripada kamu tetapi atas sebab tertentu dia terpaksa pergi, jgn terlalu sedih, terimalah kenyataan itu dan sekurang-kurangnya dia pernah membahagiakan kamu tetapi..apabila ada yg dtg,jgn biarkan ia berlalu pergi dan esok jika ia masih bertandang,jgn harap ia akan dtg kembali”

mY BiG dAy!!

2009-08-27T00:53:00.000-07:00

8/8/09..wut a beautiful date aight??tp silap arr..tahun 2009..kalo 2008 lagik cantek..8/8/08..huhu..tp x kesah laa..yg penting pada tarikh keramat tu laa aku ngn kwn2 aku konvo..riang x terkira..dpt jmpa kwn2 yg dh lame xjmpa..gosip sana sini..huhu..msk dewan kol 2..hbs dlm kol 6 kot..lmbt giler hbs..kua2 dewan,masing2 sibok carik famili masing2..xsempat nak bergmbr ngn kwn2..ade laa beberapa kerat jek dpt gambo bersame..that day also my bad day actually..only me n him know wut i really mean..everything was revealed that day..it's really hard for me to make a decision..only God knows my feeling..but today..I can accept it..even still ade gak rs sdey nye..setiap yg berlaku ade hikmahnye..

Really miss this moment..should I further my study???haha..

At last we got it..after been through 4 years of hardness..Alhamdulillah..